top of page


I don't want to simply "see" the moment

I want to be in the moment

for far too long

I have been an observer

trying far too hard

to preserve some sense of control

the kind of control that eats away your soul

removes all spontaneity

and steals your spark

I have stepped into the dark

and felt what it feels like

to feel nothing much at all

but that nothing was something I needed to feel

it was painful

it was real

and it made me want to breathe freely again

healing wasn't easy

. . .isn't easy

. . . probably won't ever be easy

and that's okay

in the bookcase of my brain


no longer claims the most space

upon these shelves

in this moment

I am living

and I'm learning

to be kinder

to myself


Recent Posts

See All


breathe in: breathe out open eyes count to five one, two, three, four no one two three four five no five didn’t feel quite right one two three four fuck! focus on the sound close eyes again breathe in

The Journey

I don't know who I want to be but I know who I am and that's enough


bottom of page